I am finding that the more I continue to write about MBLAQ’s G.O, the more nostalgic I become remembering how I came to the MBLAQ fandom which in turn makes me reminiscent about many things, including the package events. I think about those events often. Although I almost always have very fond memories, there are still times I regret having done them at all. I have learned that overall people (and this is certainly not specific to our fandom) know how to take, but rarely do they know how to receive. It’s tricky. The receiving thing. I think many of us are not particularly comfortable in receiving, feeling undeserving or ineligible. Perhaps it is because some have primarily been givers that it becomes difficult to navigate the emotions of gratitude that flood our hearts when we are on the receiving end of anything be it words, physical gift, or even assistance. I understand because I, too, have trouble receiving. But, I am getting better at it. I have found that in giving I receive more than I could ever want for in a thousand lifetimes, and that has helped me become a better receiver.
So why the prompt to write about this all of a sudden? As unimaginable as it may sound, I am contemplating another event. One to fit in between now and when G.O returns from the Army in February 2018. I am still ALL IN for G.O’s Army discharge celebration (and truth be told, that discharge date will be here sooner rather than later). Inasmuch as some of you have heard me lament over never having another event again, it seems I am unable to fight the urge to do something before G.O’s discharge. Something is truly brewing in my event factory.
If you recall at the close of my Christmas package event, I mentioned to USA+ that I would have an event specific to them. What I have jumping around in my event toy box will indeed involve a USA+. It is ambitious and quixotic, but I am determined to make it happen.
MBLAQ – My Dream